Fall in Texas

Today was a good day, considering the past few days have been the hardest so far, I've needed a good day. The girls have been fussy the past couple of days, eating every second and not sleeping in between, but crying. Yesterday on our walk someone actually came out of their house to see what the racket was all about! It was me... and my babies, apparently making a scene.

Today my friend Kelly came over and we just hung out, which is always great to have a friend here. She brought her little boy and we just kept eachother company! Tonight when Daniel came home we went to this outside thingy in downtown Bryan on the mainstreet square. There was live music and some people pushing others to "go green." I say pushing, others might call it encouraging though.

I had all the intentions to come home and watch a movie with Daniel, however, intentions are all that they are..... intentions. That did not happen. With two babies I am realizing that I may always just have intentions. :)

Ava is getting so chucky and I LOVE it. I could sit and kiss her little round face all day long. She is very alert, but when she is awake, she is usually crying... to eat.. cause she is chunky! I keep playing these little sing songy games with them both trying to encourage them to respond to me in a smile. They seem to only be interested in my breasts at this point... that is what I have going for me.... not really a change from my regular life... just kidding, sorta.

Ella is a very observant girl, she just likes to sit and stare at you, no moves for smiles from her either. Not really even gas smiles from her as often as from Ava. I have hoping they will start smiling in the next few weeks. Ella has a quiet more muffled cry, Ava has a loud look-at-me cry. When they are both crying they have a "my-mother-wishes-she-couldn't-hear-cry." I had someone from the twins club drop off a meal today and the girls had been so great up until the second before the doorbell rang. Well they just let loose and gave her a chuckle at the time I was having with both of them, remindering her of her old days I suppose. Either way, today was a good day, every day is a survival day.... keep praying for me, I think I might manage to keep from going insane, but I need the prayers! They are worth it all these little ones, I can't stop looking at them and being so proud. I love them!