baby girls, hard work

today is the 3 week and some days of these sweet baby girls and boy is it hard. Daniel and I take shifts during the night, but mainly the babies sleep on his side of the bed in the bassinet. I am having a lot of feelings, feelings of being so blessed, but also feelings of what have we gotten ourselves into. It is just so scary to think that this is our life now and we need to adjust accordingly. I miss my relationship with Daniel when it was just the two of us and we had no one else to worry about, but then again I feel more complete than I ever had, it is hard to imagine not realizing something was missing... but now that they are here, I know THEY are what was missing in our lives.

My heart is so full, but I am overwhelmed with the responsibility. Breastfeeding them both at the same time alone is such a responsibility, I am having to be ON every 3 hours or less. It isn't the most comfortable in the world, so I am just trying to get used to it all. I miss Daniel so much when he is at work.

My parents left on Monday and my sister-in-law Wendy is here to help. It is nice, we have gotten alot of the house organized to make it much easier for me to function when she leaves. Today we went to the grocery store so I know what it will be like... it will be crazy, two carseats, 1 diaper bag and a partridge in a pear tree. At least now I know I can do it.

Ava is such a little spitfire, she doesn't like to wait, Ella doesn't mind waiting, but they both like attention. I just love them so much. Daniel and I stare at them and think.."How could we be so lucky, they are so healthy, they are so beautiful, wow we are lucky."

I can't wait for all the stages, it is so fun watching them grow already. Looking towards the future!